I'm tired.
I'm tired of how you just think everything revolves around you. I am trying so hard to just be friends with you at this point, that I'm beginning to wonder if all this energy spent on you is even worth it.
You see, when things used to be just effortless, when we would gravitate towards each other simply because it was comfortable to be near one another, I would have, without skipping a beat, confirmed that we were friends. More than friends, even, more like family. But that wasn't what you wanted was it? Was any of this even worth it for you, then? Was being my friend worth all those nights spent wishing you could have me? And is this, ignoring me, is this what you do when you don't get what you can't have?
Thanks. It really makes me feel better to know that apparently you didn't value me enough to think of me as a good friend. When for me, a good friend is so hard to find. I could have spent my whole life with you as one of the most important people in my life.
I probably sound really stuck up and full of it right now, but I just feel like, if you can't stay my friend when things get hard, how can I even consider you as someone I'd want to keep around and rely on in my life? How can you expect to be anything more than just an acquaintance when you skip out on me at the first sign of discomfort?
A good relationship starts with a good friendship, yes? Things get in the way and things happen, but a good friend sticks around and makes things worth it. And when we experience these things together, that's when the trust forms. And that's where the relationship forms.
But I guess I wasn't worth it. So I'm tired of pretending you are.
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